Pathetique

Heto nanaman ako

Heto nanaman ako, nakaupo sa harap ng computer just like i always did before i left for college. At gaya rin ng dati, heto nanaman ako, nalulungkot, nalilito, sa dahilang hindi ko din naman alam. Pathetic noh? haha.Buti pa nung andun ako sa UP, alam ko kung ano ang gusto ko, which is ang umuwi. Pero ngaung nakauwi na ako, hindi parin ako satisfied. Oo, masaya ako at nakabalik na rin ako sa davao pero may kulang eh. Feel ko hindi talaga ang umuwi ang gusto ko. Feel ko ang gusto ko talaga ay mabalik ang dati kong buhay, dating mga kaibigan, dating everything. PEro I guess, malabo ng mangyari iyon. May kanya kanya na silang buhay. Mga bagong kaibigan, bagong experiences, bagong life. Nakakalungkot nga lang isipin na hindi na ako parte ng kanilang everyday lives. Mananatili nalang akong 'friend from highschool' or something like that na bumabalik lamang tuwing bakasyon,pero wen d break's over, aalis nanaman at back to normal na ang lahat. hahay. Sa tingin ko kailangan ko ng masanay sa ganito. Mahirap pero wala na akong magagawa. Ganoon na talaga ang mga bagay bagay. Hindi na gaya ng dati. Ang lahat ay nagbago na. At patuloy ang pagbabagong ito habang buhay.

Gaya nga ng sabi sa kanta ng Paramore:

And when we get home, I know we won't be home at all
This place we live, it is not where we belong
And I miss who we were in the town that we could call our own
Going back to get away after everything has changed

'Could you remind me of a time when we were so alive
(Everything has changed)
Do you remember that? Do you remember that?
(Everything has changed)
'Could you help me push aside all that I have left behind
(Everything has changed)
Do you remember that? Do you remember that?

So we stand here now and no one knows us at all
I won't get used to this
I won't get used to being gone
And going back won't feel the same if we aren't staying
Going back to get away after everything has changed

'Could you remind me of a time when we were so alive
(Everything has changed)
Do you remember that? Do you remember that?
(Everything has changed)
'Could you help me push aside all that I have left behind
(Everything has changed)
Do you remember that? Do you remember that?

Taking up our time
Taking up our time
Taking up our time
It's taking up our time we can't
go back, we can't go back at all
It's taking up our time we can't
go back, we can't go back at all
It's taking up our time we can't
go back, we can't go back at all
It's taking up our time, taking up our time

'Cause you remind me of a time when we were so alive
Do you remember that? Do you remember that?

hay naku. By the way, parati kong kinakanta ito dun sa kalay. haha . at everytime kinakanta ko to...naiiyak ako... T.T

posted by maemae @ 10:39 AM